March 2016 -

Just a place for my old thoughts

Wednesday, 23 March 2016 12:13 pm

Just this week John finally passed away. He has been struggling with the worst ill health imaginable for quiet a while so in some ways it is a release both for him and my mother.

I'm not a religious person but his brief service was honestly beautiful and I think really paid tribute to John in a way that I think we might have appreciated. The words spoken by the celebrant were not only appropriate but really where in fitting with how I think everyone was feeling.

Obviously Mum was deeply affected and is going to take a very long time to come to terms with being without John. It felt very right that Wayne, JT and I were all there to help support Mum and just be around.

John was a very private person, maybe even a recluse, so it was little surprise given the time frame that there were only a handful of people to see him off. Having said that I think that is how he would have liked it.

I don't imagine that he would have liked anyone making a fuss.

Monday, 28 March 2016 1:06 am

Thanks my son. Your words mean a lot to me.I am starting to feel a bit more myself and most of the time not quite so sad.

LOve Mum

Wednesday, 16 March 2016 11:27 am

The phone line for the restaurant is still active but shutdown so I get email messages with an attached sound file should someone leave a message.

Normally they are just 10 seconds of silence and then the call drops but today I had someone asking if the restaurant was still open and if they could make a booking. I must confess to having ignored a couple of these in the past but this time I called back and explained that we were closed for good.

The person was lovely and told me how much she and her friends had enjoyed coming the the restaurant last year. She told me they loved the menu and the wine list and it was such a shame we had closed.

It was this type of interaction that kept me going, perhaps for way too long, before deciding to close.

Anyway, it was nice.

Friday, 11 March 2016 12:48 am

This morning I dropped Deb off at the ferry, rushed home, packed the kittehs and headed for the Sunshine Coast. I didn't even shower. Not running away, just taking maximum advantage of a very dear friends invitation to spend time at her house on the coast.

To arrive, open the patio door that has the stunning view of the ocean off Yaroomba, and let the breeze just wash over you. It's a privilege to be able to come here.

And, for the second time since coming here after closing the restaurant, I found myself on the verge of tears. Happy, sad, the potential to relax, to run away, to just forget for a short while. I don't know what mix of emotions triggers that but it's something I have to acknowledge.

Wednesday, 16 March 2016 8:00 am

Hi Danny. Such a well written post mate. Life can kick us so hard that sometimes we want to crumble inside, but your second paragraph shows that the most simplest of things in life are the real food for the soul, the real things that make us happy. A good sea breeze and some good company can easily make those 'kicks' not feel so hard.

Chin up Brother ;)