November 2005 -

Just a place for my old thoughts

Of happiness and friends...
Sunday, 27 November 2005 8:17 am
(DJ, Lian and Daniel)

As part of the YLT program at work we did a special behavioural review called the 'Life Style Indicator' or LSI. The idea is that you give a questionnaire to 5 people you work with and they answer how you behave in different situations. At the end you get a map that shows how much Red (Aggressive), Green (Passive) and Blue (Balanced) tendencies that you have.

Given that I had the crap kicked out of me a few years ago as part of an 'Upward Feedback' program at work there was nothing much that surprised me in the results. Actually they were pretty good. The important part for me was that how I saw myself matched roughly with how others saw me.

I looked over the results, considered that I was on the right track, took note of one or two things that I should be doing to continue improving and then put the whole thing in my top draw. And why wouldn't I...I thought I knew what the response told me. That was until I took up the offer to have the results fully explained to me by an accredited LSI councillor. Whoa!!!

I thought that I was doing pretty well in how I was approaching my development. I had seen that I was rated as having a very high 'Perfectionistic' behaviour and I thought I just had to be careful in dealing with others to ensure that I didn't let it cloud what I was doing.

What I didn't realise was that this same tendency was actually influencing the very way that I felt about myself, my life and my achievements. Having a deeply ingrained perfectionistic streak means that I am never happy with what I have achieved, no matter how good. This showed up in the results with my Self-actualisation being way way way low. I didn't think anything of it but the councillor was really quite shocked and asked me if I was happy. Such a simple word happy...but at that moment I was completely unable to say 'yes'. I simply wasn't, am not, no.

So I am working through how that makes me feel and trying to put a framework around it. Mostly I am trying to be less hard on myself and make sure that I set achievable internal goals that I can celebrate when I reach them.

On the home front we are getting ready for Christmas. Deb is going to head over to Adelaide a week before me and I am starting to miss her already. The thought of coming home to a house without her each night doesn't seem very appealing. On the upside, once I get the cat's dumped at the cattery, I'll be off to a week of beer and too much food. Deb's mum seems to believe that I need to weigh at least 10kg heavier when I head home from when I arrived. And who I am to disappoint

And finally, I am pleased to announce that Menolly (Serena) has entered the World of Warcraft. After installing the software, and then waiting for the updates to download, she was finally online last night. We quickly noted her rapid rise to lvl7, that was when we logged off at midnight, so I can't wait to find out how far she got in one go.

Amonsine and I headed over to where she was and chatted for a bit but didn't want to hang around and spoil her fun. Having said that if Menolly wants a hand there are two mid level Nightelves who are just itching to pitch in and assist.

We welcome Menolly to the World of Warcraft

Monday, 28 November 2005 4:53 pm

OK already. You should be in sales.... How much does warcraft cost and will it run on my pc.

Tuesday, 29 November 2005 5:42 am

Another Alvers joins the dark side...

Tuesday, 29 November 2005 3:06 pm

No, just doing some digging and I pretty sure win98 doesn't cut it. :(

WoW and the rapid approach of Christmas
Monday, 21 November 2005 7:40 am

I'm not really sure if I am ashamed of it or not but I spent the better part of the weekend playing World of Warcraft again.

As we progress we are getting into all the jargon and tricks. We loaded up a few 'Addons' which make doing things easier when you are playing. Like a button that removes poison and curses from my group without having to specifically pick a spell and cast it on a person...very helpful.

Deb has loaded an Addon that allows her Pet to dig through her bags and eat when it gets hungry. This has resulted in Deb getting rather upset as her cat starts scoffing the carefully acquired contents of her food bag.

For me I was quite pleased because I wrote my first real macro. It took a while to get the logic to work, and to stuff it down into 255 characters, which is a requirement, but it works a treat and saved us a few times.

In the real world I cooked Veal & Potato Tagine on Saturday night which was delicious. The problem is that I washed it down with a bottle of red and was feeling very very average on Sunday. So sadly Sunday was my first alcohol free day for quite some time. I should definitely have more but my case of Charles Melton wine just arrived I may have to make tomorrow alcohol free.

On the home front I completely failed to summon the energy to mow the front lawn which is now higher than my cats. So if I get away at a realistic time tonight I am going to get it done.

Other than that the YLT has been going really well and we are on the run-up to Christmas. I had all of Deb's gifts ready for wrapping and then I am done. There will be nothing else to do but get over to Adelaide, eat food and drink beer. Gee I love Christmas...

..and thanks for the S&T
Tuesday, 15 November 2005 7:13 am

An additional quick note to thank everyone for contributing to the Show and Tell page as well. We really really really really (you get the idea) love seeing your pictures.

Christmas is coming...
Tuesday, 15 November 2005 7:10 am

The Alvers family has decided not to send interstate presents due to the whole 'swapping gift vouchers' thing. The best thing about this is that it means that I have finished my Christmas shopping for the year.

It also means that we can put the money into a couple of flights to Brisbane early in the New Year which is going to be awesome. Can anyone say *Seafood Lunch*

I have actually already had a couple of items for Deb sitting in my draw at work for quite some time. It was just a case of grabbing them when I had the chance and just holding onto them.

Have you every found yourself just waiting at the train station

World of Warcraft is chewing up a fair amount of our time. We have got our characters up to level 28 which is very very cool and I finally got my aquatic for as well so I can swim around without the need to breath. (Trust me!, in game it is a very cool feature)

Here is Deb's character, Amonsine, after she had to turn herself into a Firbolg

In between 12 hour gaming sessions we did manage to get one of the garden beds in the backyard cleaned up and looking very nice. It was pretty hard work but we had previously put in some fruit trees and I really didn't want to loose the investment through neglect.

Second week on the job
Saturday, 5 November 2005 6:39 am

Well, it has been two weeks in my new role in the Initiatives team at work. Interestingly enough for a team that was responsible for the development and delivery of projects it is funny that my role never actually gets to work on any projects.

I am enjoying the change of pace though from the CS Leaders role that I have left with Orla. My greatest worry is that Orla will do such a good job that they won't want me back. (I can only hope that everyone really misses me)

On Thursday I ran a lunchtime session to tell my team about a workshop we did at the last YLT conference. The subject was 'Think on your feet' and I figured I was going to get about a dozen responses to my invite. When I get the 27th response I really started to worry. I don't mind public speaking too much but I was about to present an untested course that I had just developed to a bunch of people that had no idea about the topic. Needless to say I was a little worried. Catherine came along from my YLT group which just helped to ramp up the pressure another notch.

Well, I couldn't have hoped for a better response at the end of the session. Everyone really seemed to enjoy it and the feedback was great. Sort of brought me home at the end of the day on a exhausted high...good fun.